I have tried many times in the past to write a blog. I've kept my thoughts private on tumblr, I've written about running on wordpress, I've attempted to be a healthy-living-specialist on wordpress...but nothing is me. as someone who wrote for years in a friends-only-locked livejournal, writing online is not new to me. It is always hard and it is always different, but I really want a blog that lasts, not one that fades away because I feel like I have to be something I'm not.
Take running for example. I never used to be a 'runner' until sophomore year of college, and even then, I had trouble deciding if that's really what I was or not. I wasn't ever comfortable in the dance department at college or at my studio at home nor was I ever fully comfortable at any theater but LMP. nowhere ever made me feel at home like running does. running brought me back to a relationship with God, made me realize Goucher was really the place for me, and helped me know what my body can do. I can run for 15 miles and hold a conversation; I can run 25 times around a track without getting bored. recently I have been stuck in a boot on my left foot with a potential stress fracture, and I am about to have not run for 1 week. some people never run in their entire lives...I should be grateful for what I have. as Kara Goucher said in her book, "I am not a runner...I am a person who runs."
I spent the weekend at home making cookies, doing pilates, and being (comfortable) with my mom. I have come so far since december, when I was struggling more than I have in years. I am not sure what has changed me but I'd really like to keep discovering what it is.
I've become comfortable with being an english major. I love participating in class and I love reading. I'm putting off homework now, but it's not English. I want to go to graduate school and I want to get a PhD, but if that happens, it happens. if it doesn't...so be it. I'm ready to create, I think I'm finally ready to begin. so here goes. let's see what we can do, world.
Take running for example. I never used to be a 'runner' until sophomore year of college, and even then, I had trouble deciding if that's really what I was or not. I wasn't ever comfortable in the dance department at college or at my studio at home nor was I ever fully comfortable at any theater but LMP. nowhere ever made me feel at home like running does. running brought me back to a relationship with God, made me realize Goucher was really the place for me, and helped me know what my body can do. I can run for 15 miles and hold a conversation; I can run 25 times around a track without getting bored. recently I have been stuck in a boot on my left foot with a potential stress fracture, and I am about to have not run for 1 week. some people never run in their entire lives...I should be grateful for what I have. as Kara Goucher said in her book, "I am not a runner...I am a person who runs."
I spent the weekend at home making cookies, doing pilates, and being (comfortable) with my mom. I have come so far since december, when I was struggling more than I have in years. I am not sure what has changed me but I'd really like to keep discovering what it is.
I've become comfortable with being an english major. I love participating in class and I love reading. I'm putting off homework now, but it's not English. I want to go to graduate school and I want to get a PhD, but if that happens, it happens. if it doesn't...so be it. I'm ready to create, I think I'm finally ready to begin. so here goes. let's see what we can do, world.
I love this. You know I love this. I love that you're doing better than you have in months, I love that you are finding yourself at goucher, and I love that you're loving the run, no matter what. This stress fracture will heal with time and we'll be back to our long 15 mile runs of straight gossip before you know it. In the meantime, aqua jogging will have to do, although I don't know if I can take 15 miles of it.
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